why don't you come on down

Aloha, Bitches

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 04:24:37 GMT

Michele - I heard you got to spend the night with Jade and Heather! I'm jealous. I've been meaning to hang out with those girls again.

Kyla, Lise and Sarah are coming out to visit me on the 19-21 but for some reason I doubt you'll be able to get the time off. If you can - that would be an out of this world weekend adventure pour moi!

Ok so that takes care of business this quarter.

I would just like to start off by saying that the only way to travel is with your rich parents and their rich friends

My parents have more friends out here right now than in chilliwack EVER.

All the McDonalds big shots from Canada come out here. Actually we have met more people from the lower mainland than anywhere else.

Last night we went up to Brian's hotel room at the Four Seasons - we drank Cristal in the private lounge on his floor. I was dipping strawberry's into Cristal - watching the clouds roll across the sky and the palms surrounding the ocean. The grounds at the Four Seasons looks like an imperial palace in Europe. We ate at a place called Joe's - I had seafood boullabaise which was so fucking awesome. Brian got soo wasted by the end of the meal he was belting out It's a small world and then taking requests. It was pretty amusing.

we ate a Spago's the night before - which is wolfgang puck's restaurant. they seated us at a horrible table to begin with but you can't do that with restaurant owners. So they complained and we ended up going through 2 tables until we settled. How embarassing.

Anyway we had a lovely meal. I had the thai coconut soup which had thai chili oil, shitake mushrooms, and the same noodles that are in sunomono salad. My entree was a Lehi Snapper that was lightly crusted and came on a bed of spinach, topped with sweet corn and edamame, with a lobster cognac reduction.

It was really good but in all honesty - I had a better time at Bubba Gumps and I got to eat my face off with a whole bunch of different kinds of shrimp. The waiter also flirted with me and he looked like noni but had his masters in creative writing.

I would have loved to go home with him!
After Bubba Gumps we walked around this neat store went to this amazing art gallery for christain lassen - the most famous marine artist in the world. The director of the gallery was this hot surfer looking guy - he gaves us this show in a private room. They dim the lights to show how the paintings change in different lighting. I've never seen anything like this guys work. As the lights go down, it looks like the sun is setting on his pictures. Its so hard to describe but utterly amazing to see. Even my Dad was enthralled. Him and Brian both want to buy something of his now. But of course - Brian wants to buy an original which costs upwards of 250,000.This is the guy that spent over a 1000 dollars last night on booze.

Every morning my mother and myself have gone on at least a 2 hour walk. I sweat like a beast out here because of the humidity. I come back and my clothes are soaked. I have to take a face cloth with me to keep my face dry.

It's been pretty cloudy, although still really warm and lots of sunny breaks. Today it was really cloudy so we ended up going to a movie - the pursuit of happiness - which was really good but mostly SAD. We did a little shopping at Ross - which is the american version of winners. I got a super cute shirt with tiny pokadots.

Wednesday I will be getting my hair done - hopefully it will turn out ok. I feel sketchy about getting it done out here so we'll see.

I can't wait to go to the aquarium tomorrow! The marine center out here is supposed to be one of the best in the states! Michele - I wish you were here for that!!!

will update with pictures hopefully soon!

VIOLATING WOMEN'S RIGHTS IS COOL!

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 04:10:26 GMT

Happy september 11th!
=D

Lynda (my roomate who was back in yellowknife for the summer) is back, and school is in full effect, 2006 2007 semester represent.

too bad its the first time in 18 years that I am not going back to school
how fucking insane is that.

fairly insane.
like at least a 7.

I also think that I have decided to put off applying to graduate schools for 1 year. Instead of rushing to get through these 2 exams and trying to put together 3 application packages in the next 3 months.
I will apply january of 2008. This gives me time to get some more experience, both volunteer and research.
And to get my shit together.

i'm pretty sure the dog just came in here and farted and then left.
thanks hunker...
thanks so much.

this weekend we went to a party which was hosted by a lynda's friend mike. He just moved down here from yellowknife as well. It was pretty lame - and there was a guy who played the guitar in the living room and sang so fucking hard that his face was soo red and he was sweating his face off.
kenny called him the juicy fruit dude.
he sang really horrible songs a la nickelback esque. the only saving grace was weezer at one point.

we decided it was our duty as a group at this lame party, to start chanting random phrases over top of juicy fruit dude.
we started out saying something i don't remember, which morphed into GRAPES! then RAPE!
we continued on with RAPE for a solid chunk of time.
here are some of the other things we chanted that evening:
-Violating women's rights is cool!
-RAPE IS (great) x 3, RAPE IS (AWESOME!!!)
-LUBE IT UP!
-IN THE BUTT!
-ASS TO ASS!
-ASS TO MOUTH!

but mostly just RAPE over and over.
I don't think you can get away with chanting rape so much at one house without offending someone.
i'm pretty sure a lot of people hated us that night.

We then left said party to walk home, because we were about a 10 min walk away from our place. It ended up in debauchery abounds.
First off, It began raining so fucking hard it was insane. It hasn't rained that hard here in I don't even fucking know how long. It was crazy.
Then Sean began flash puking as I tried to lead a group of 6 drunk people through this school as a short cut. Lynda insisted I had no idea where I was, and that we wait out the fucking storm.
I decided to leave the drunk people and walk home to get my car and then come back for them.

While I was gone, lynda decided to knock on a few doors or something, ended up talking to some people and freaking them out (this was at nearly 2 am).

Then about 5 minutes from home I have to piss like a fucking race horse.
I decided that because I was all alone at 2 am, walking through sheets of rain - basically walking through a swimming pool outside with my entire wardrobe soaked, It would be ok for me to just pee as I walked.
So I did.
What can I say.
It was warm relief I tell yah.

all and all it was a successful first week of the new school semester over here in vic city.
rippin it up classy style,
chanting rape and peeing on myself.

the journal is brought to you by marijuana and peach growers coolers.

Dirrty Babe. You see these shackels baby? I'm your Slave

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 01:32:57 GMT

I'm in love with a lot of fucking bar music lately
and it's really not a good scene for anyone involved
well - i should clearify
some of it i actually enjoy and appreciate and some of it is crap that i find humorous. Some both.

my playlist includes the following songs

SexyBack - J timberlake
London Bridge - Fergie
The Police and the Private - Metric
Why We Thugs - Ice Cube
Go To Church - Ice Cube ft. Snoop Dogg & Lil Jon
Maneater - Nelly Furtado
Glow - Nelly Furtado
Rock Show - Peaches
Temperature - Sean Paul

The last song now makes me laugh out loud whence i listen. thanks to michele and the bar and me ruining her attempt at dancing with her friends and then the native guy on stage who was dancing to said song.
who apparantly is a regular at "Dappers Night Club" in Chilliwack, BC, Canada.
if anyone wants to check him out.

I was in the office today at UVic for 7.5 hours with no break. I forgot to plug my parking meter and got a ticket. I think it's pretty funny that because of my complete and utter ignorance I payed 22.00 dollars for parking today.
way to go
good thing i got hired as a research assistant when i can't even remember to plug my own fucking parking meter.

i don't understand how people can be totally smart in some areas, and completely ignorant in others. Or how someone can get their PhD and not know how to use their printer.

However, I do understand how important it is to communicate efficiently in ANY and EVERY work environment.
I have already spent a number of hours doing things in the office only to find out it was unnecessary or that I had typed up the wrong document, etc.

Dr.Dyson is Japanese though, so there is a language barrier as well.

It's so frustrating trying to figure out how two other people have organized documents, which folders they are located in on the computer, what documents to update etc. And then there is figuring out the coding, and how all of the variables are defined, reverse coding
it goes on.
and on.

900 participants or more and 3 years of data.

in other news
how fucking awesome has big brother been lately?
holy shit fuck
sean got a chill town shirt and it's fucking rad.

and house started
and the new season of laguna

it's funny how my life now consists of working and then tv.

i have a crush on a boy.
his voice makes me giddy like a stupid girl.

i wish he didn't live across the ocean and that he didn't love wizards and dragons more than me.

I'm not - I'm HUNGRY

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 20:34:51 GMT

oh sorry. that's just my hunger talking.

right now I am in the UVic library, nearly finished my first shift of..
my new research assistant position

yayyyy! I got the job!!

I've never had a job before where I could go online and do fun online things whilst working so I figure
hey, why not update my livejournal?
makes sense
non?

I had so much fun in chilliwack. I love reminding myself that I don't need bad stimulants to have a good time, only 40's of colt 45 and michele.
Dappers was actually fun, thanks to Michele, Chris, and his group of guys friends.
I got partially molested by a guy with a full beard who Chris referred to as "dad"
even though it was his friend Adrian.
I found that humorous.

I wish I was at home and I could post pictures of said molestor.

The baby is also beyond adorable, which I really wasn't expecting. Like yea whatever, babies are cute. But seriously, elaine and dave are really good at making ridiculously cute babies.

I have to appologize to Gill for making her rent Final Destination 3 for like 3 days in a row, and then never being around to watch it. if you guys can come to victoria, i'll make up for it.
=D

I have to leave soon to go eat lunch, and then go to an interview at London Drugs for that pharmacy tech position. Although I'm sure that I won't be taking the job, I figure the experience is good at least.

yah00 for meee

in other news, I got a call from lynda last night
she got fucking backstage passes to a system show in montreal, which she flew to with her sister janine who was the one who scored the tickets at the last show she was at recently because she's hot
anyway they got to meet serj and john and got pictures, and got to stand beside the stage during the show.
avenged sevenfold was also there, and I guess they rocked out with them.

lynda was one happy girl last night.

again, i'll post pictures sooon

i hang out with 19 year old's

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 17:29:57 GMT

i woke up early this morning and finished painting my brother's gift. which is a flower pot that has a cherry blossom branch on it. I think i'm gonna get him some bamboo for it. I figure asian goes with asian.
i need to get my sister the rest of her birthday present and then i'm all square on presents

things have been going really well lately
in all sorts of ways

big brother is starting to finally get juicy. although i downloaded live feeds off the interweb and it kind of ruined last night's episode a little bit. but whatever. I prefer downloading life feeds from mininova rather than paying 40 dollars US a month.
makes sense, n'est pas?

i have only put out 3 resume's so far on my 'job hunt'
and i already got 2 call backs.
one for a london drugs pharmacy technician - which pays horribly and the pharmacist/manager has the same degree i do - a bachelor of science - and yet i am required to take an educational assessment.
he seems like a douche too

the other one is much more promising. it is for a research assistant position at uvic, and i would be working with this cute older asian woman named Dr.Lily Dyson. She is in the field of education and is currently doing research on ways to fight literacy problems in lower socioeconomic schools/areas. Basically at first I would just be doing data entry on SPSS which is a program psyc/social science peeps use to do statistical analysis for data that has been collected during the research process.
then the position may lead to permanent part time come september

she is apparantly checking my references over the weekend and getting back to me. But i felt really good about the interview. she was impressed with the career portfolio i had put together.

I'm glad i took that applied career transfer program at UVic. Sean makes fun of me and calls it CAPP, but fuck you sean.
she thought i was organized, and after asking questions like "do you feel you are a good writer" - it's nice to have tanigble documents that they can pull out and read through and judge for themselves. Also, any chance to show off that i can draw is nice.
for some reason people are always so impressed with that.
and Psi Chi.

The position is only lik 6-12 hours a week or something. but really that is perfect. i can keep my job at clare's because it's good money, and then I have time to study for my tests that I have to take.

I'm coming to chilliwack tonight after work. I love July 28- Sept 4 (i think) because there is a FERRY EVERY HOUR UNTIL 10 pm. that is so awesome. usually it is hard for me to catch the 7 after work and then I have to wait for the 9 which is usually late. then I don't get home until like 1am.
but now there is an 8 pm ferry.
yessss

in other news. I'm jealous of Mel's new place on promontory (i think it's on promontory). Talk about sweet deal and nice house. I miss hanging out with melanie! I remember one time we went to superstore to stalk what would be my boyfriend of 3 years later on. He wasn't actually there and we ended up freaking out the cashiers working in the photo department. I think we were holding hands and she purchased some racey underwear.
hahahhahaha

I finally got to go to luminara on mushrooms. For those who don't know, and care to know, luminara is a festival of lights that victoria has every year. It is held in beacon hill park at night time, and they set up tents and displays with all different kinds of homemade lanterns. People dress up and go to the park with their lanterns and wander around looking at the lights.
and of course this is a perfect event to go to on mushrooms.
I went with sean's sister Jade and her roomate Heather, and their friend John. Who was a reall hot photographer from vancouver who was visiting. Heather scores all the hot dudes. maybe because she's half naked most of her life. but damn. she's pretty hot
anyway. We all dressed up as faeries. except for john. really all heather was wearing was underwear and toole.

we walked around for maybe half an hour then got overwhelmed with walking and the amount of people there
so we sat by this pond that was surrounded by paper bag lanterns, and this cool Hindi looking lantern in the shape of a hand. Basically we laughed our asses off for 2 hours and realized everyone was gone, and they were taking everything down.

jade and heather have an apartment right downtown, by still life, across from market square. it's really handy.

I'm excited to see michele - hopefully tonight.
i'm also excited to see another person. but also nervous.
i hope i get to see sean as well.

i'm a quarter of the way through my fantasy novel.
at points it gets really confusing. there is a glossary for christ sakes.
its like reading a text book.

i'm trying.

Dear Diary

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 19:36:35 GMT

I'm trying to find a job still. rather unsuccessfully
maybe because i'm not really trying par se, but making it look like i'm kind of trying so that my parents will just keep giving me my monthly allowance.
part time work is good enough for now, isn't it?

I have to start studying soon for the GRE anyway and I dont really want a full time job while i'm trying to study for one of the more important tests i'll ever have to take in my life.

I have to take another GRE subject test for psychology as well. It is as if they are implying that because I am a psychology major I need ANOTHER test to prove myself worthy.
Kind of insulting, but bring it on. I'll take your test and own its soul.

oh and get this - it will cost a grand total of $290 for me to APPLY to 3 Universities in British Columbia
(UBC $110, SFU $95, UVic $85).
I'm pretty sure the chances of me getting into UBC are slim to none unless I score higher than 80th percentile on my GRE and somehow manage to get a related volunteer position and research experience in the next 5 months.

well now that we have taken care of my CAPP for the day..

This guy

wants to do me. and hey - i'm okay with that.
we are going to start a fantasy/science fiction novel bookclub

first on the docket is volume one of the Malazan Book of the Fallen entitled Gardens of the Moon by Steven Erikson

sean has the following to say about this

sEan says:
you are an embarassment to me
pink p0ny says:
whatever you're such a loser
sEan says:
not as much as you will be
sEan says:
reading fantasy novels is like eating only trans-fats
sEan says:
same idea
sEan says:
seriously
sEan says:
don't do it
sEan says:
you are dead to me
sEan says:
and it shall remain that way for as long as fantasy novels are read
sEan says:
By Order of The King, he hath decreed this doth, so shall it be so

i miss these kids

why does yellowknife have to be so far away.
stupid noni and his stupid girlfriend.

i don't get why we can't be friends still if he never liked me to begin with.

next year will be fun though, sean will be here and the yellowknife crew back. and i won't be in school for once in my life, and everyone else will be. muwhahahhaha

Big Brother is on tonight. which makes me excited. i get retarded when i watch that show. like overly excited and ridiculous.
i dont even care about canada's next top model tomorrow. they all sucked to begin with. why do canadian things just end up being so much more shittier?

well what else can i say.
the lung is calling me

i don't even know what to say

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 07:28:24 GMT

oh, harro.

where the hell have i been anyway?

i feel like the last 2 months have gone by faster than any other months in my whole life.

i'm supposed to be getting my "life" in order, now that i am officially an alumnus of UVic.
no seriously. i got a bumper sticker in the mail and everything.

i thought going to convocation would be pointless and a waste of time.
but i'm glad that i went. it was a nice way to put some kind of formal finality to everything.
its weird how graduating from highschool is made sooo much more of a big deal than graduating from university.
i thought i was going to cry so many times..
i miss school already. isn't that lame?
yah00 for graduating with distinction.

i wish i could take astronomy every summer for the rest of my life.
last summer was great because of it.

speaking of which. my astronomy lab teacher that i became friends with last year, Aaron - he is now finished his PhD and got 96% overall. in astrophysics. INSANE.
I got to hang out with him last week at a really cool party.
he played guitar with a few other guys, and got everyone to sing a song that they wrote for their friends 30th birthday.
i think it was one of the cutest man-things that i've ever seen.
all these like.. nearly 30 year olds being crazy sentimental and thoughtful.

i've decided that we need to get together this weekend to discuss the ATLAS experiment that will be conducted by CERN in 2007.
all i have to say is when protons collide cool shit will happen.
does anyone want to join us?

ok here are some personal goals for the week
- apply for at least 1 job
- watch big brother 7 on thursday
- try not to kill clare after working 3 days in a row
- find a gym and become a member
- remember that i have an appointment for my unhealthy Car tomorrow at 11am
- make Hunker less stinky
- buy a sidoku puzzle book
- find someone to buy drugs off of

last day of class = today

Thu, 06 Apr 2006 22:30:21 GMT

I can't believe I'm nearly DONE

just one more paper to write (on the evolution of the mind. interesting, no?)
and 3 more exams at the end of the month

better yet
I talked to Paul - my neuropsyc professor - today after class. I told him my paper topic and he was intrigued. He shared a video with us today on the topic of global consciousness. Its funny because it totally related to astronomy and I told him my favorite astronomy quote and he was like "wow.. thats really amazing"
it totally fit just so perfectly with all the ideas we had just talked about.
the video was about what it is to be self-aware.. and how in trying to understand ourselves and what it all means, we eventually loose this idea of selfish experience and know that we all share an underlying fundamental state of consciousness.
which is so hard for us to explain and grasp that we try to create it through the "self" by identifying who we are with physical identities and conceptualizing us as separate entities from our environment and others, when everything on this earth is working together for one thing - and that is to sustain the earth. In turn realizing how important it is for us to evolve not through biology now but through our ideas on how to exist. This is what they consider to be a global state of awareness or consciousness. Everyone coming together and realizing that to sustain ourselves,(hypocritically, albeit)and to survive (reproductive success and fitness) we have to let go of the physical as the seat of evolution and look to the mind

so yea. it was a really really interesting class.
afterward i walked with paul to his next class, he's sits in on a class that a friend andrea is in, and i was supposed to lend her some notes from another class.
it turned out to be a perfect excuse to ask him his advice on how to further myself in neuropsyc
he told me some people to get in contact with, and who to avoid - which was so awesome. and he told me that i'm really intelligent and obviously passionate and to just go ahead with networking. I knew it was the next step, but i wasn't really sure who to network with.
it was awesome that he complimented me, so i asked if he would be interested in writing me a reference letter and he said no problem just to email him my transcripts

i'm scared to do that though. my transcripts are totally a reflection of how i let my emotions get the better of me and how i let myself down. like really good semesters sandwiched inbetween two really horrible semesters both caused by emotional distress
I feel as though I owe him an explanation
which is like making excuses. I mean my grades are my grades, but they are not necessarily a reflection of my abilities in all cases.

anyway. i'm totally at a crossroad in my life right now
things seem to be headed in the right direction
so i feel slightly peaceful for the moment
i'm not sure how long it will last
but hey
i'm gonna enjoy it while i can.

michele: sorry i never got to see you at work. i slept in hardcore and then grace came over, i packed and drove to van. i'm gonna call you soon because i want to hear whats going on with things and stuff which i tend to not be as explicit about as some people
*cough* GILL *cough* uhmm and yea. it sucks that it was the shortest visit ever. but hey - i'll be home for easter. yah00

did you guys like brokeback or what?

noni is coming on saturday and i'm pretty excited. i have mixed feelings, but mostly excited. we talked on the phone the other night and it made me remember why we're actually friends.

i will post some pictures from my fake birthday party some time
it was an alright time thanks to select few people
two of them not being lynda and becky
but that isn't surprising

ps. matt good acoustic show
yessss

<3

for anyone who's interested. ahem

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 07:34:49 GMT

PYSC 415A
TERM PAPER#1 EVALUATION

FOR: Cathy Andrews

SPECIFIC
1. THESIS STATEMENT 5/ 5
2. “WHAT“
• REVIEW OF LITERATURE 10 / 10
3. “SO WHAT”
• IMPLICATIONS 10/ 10
• APPLICATIONS 10/ 10
• PERSONAL VIEW POINT 10/ 10
4. “WHAT NEXT?”
• GAPS TO BE ADDRESSED 9/ 10
• FUTURE DIRECTIONS 8/ 10
• PERSONAL VIEW POINT 10/ 10
GENERAL
5. ORIGINALITY / CREATIVITY 5 / 5
6. STRUCTURE / CLARITY 9/ 10
7. SPELLNG / GRAMMAR 9/ 10

95/ 100

COMMENTS:

• Really enjoyed reading your paper, very creative and well written!
• Great intro but it lacks a clear thesis statement in the beginning, which makes it more challenging to follow your line of thought.
• You need to consider more of the broader implications of modularity and how that may impact how we do research.

Fusiform Face or Fusiform Expertise?
A Closer Look at the Function of the Fusiform Gyrus

Empedocles once described visual perceptions as a principle of “…like by like” in that “…for with earth we see the earth, with water we see water, with air bright air, with fire consuming fire, with love do we see love, strife with dread strife”, however we now know that visual objection perception and recognition is not as simple as Empedocles may have once thought. Do we really see objects as objects, and faces as faces, or is there something about each of these types of objects that we perceive?

Visual object agnosia and prosopagnosia both provide neuropsychologists with unique opportunities for the examination of the neural mechanisms that are required for object recognition and whether or not they are different from those governing the recognition of faces. The exact nature of both object agnosia and prosopagnosia has been studied extensively and summaries of these studies are beyond the scope of this paper. In its purist form visual object agnosia can be thought of as the inability to recognize objects with spared recognition of faces. In the purist form of prosopagnosia the opposite is true as they have impaired face recognition and intact object recognition. It is through examination of cortical damage and spared or lost abilities that subsequent reductions or correlations have been made with regards to the modularity of brain regions for the recognition of objects and faces.

Modularity, Shmodularity!

In general it is thought that the existence of object agnosia without prosopagnosia, and prosopagnosia without object agnosia provide evidence for a double dissociation in function of the corresponding areas of damage. In correspondence with functional neuroimaging and neurophysiological studies, a division in duties has been surmised between that of the left and right fusiform gyri for object and face recognition, respectively (McCarthy).

Face processing is of special interest as it seems to evoke a rather specific region of the fusiform gyrus, and this provides strong evidence for the modularity view of brain processing. Although the definition of this area differs from 3 voxels according to some and 6 voxels according to others (Tarr and Gauthier, 2000), the fusiform face area (FFA) has been implicated as functioning solely for the purpose of face perception (Kanwisher, 2006). It has also been proposed that this specificity as arisen from an evolutionary demand for quicker face processing in accordance with survival needs (McCarthy).

Various disorders that result from cortical damage, such as the aphasia’s, provide some evidence toward the modularity of the brain and its functioning. But maybe it is time to look beyond the modularity debate. As suggested by Tarr and Gauthier (2000), the issue is not whether specific neural correlates of face processing or object processing exists, but what exactly the modularity of these regions reflects. Is it true that the fusiform face area is responding to the extremely domain specific stimuli of faces, or is there some other reason that this modularity exists?
According to Tarr and Gauthier (2000) there are three competing models which attempt to provide explanations for the high specificity of FFA response to faces, and other areas of the extrastriate cortex for other categories of objects. They refer to Kanwisher and her ideas as the “detecting model” such that face selectivity of the FFA is reflective of face geometry detection which is innate. A second model is referred to as the “feature-map model” and category selectivity is claimed to be due to response of discrete brain areas that respond preferentially to specific geometries. A third model, the flexible “process-map model” is proposed as the true mechanism for category selectivity which is unrelated to stimulus geometry and actually a function of experience in associating specific geometries with recognition strategies that recruit that appropriate regions of the process map.
The following paper will provide evidence in support of the idea that the fusiform face area is more domain general than what is currently believed and modularity seen with object and face recognition is better explained by the process map model than by simply innate detection of geometry (the detecting model). More specifically the idea that subordinate-level visual processing (level of categorization) and expertise are required for the recruitment of the fusiform face area (FFA) will be explored.

The Detection and Feature-Map Models – Why Not?

The Detection model states that FFA activity is closely related to face geometry. There are a few lines of evidence that refutes this claim. First, if FFA activation is based on stimulus geometry then the inversion effect should have an impact on FFA activity. However face recognition and perception are strongly affected by the inversion effect while having minimal effect on activity in the FFA (Tarr and Gauthier, 2000). However it could be argued that the technique (fMRI) used to measure this effect is not yet sensitive enough, of which support for or against this thought is also beyond the scope of this paper.

Second, if FFA activation is required for face perception then damage to this area should produce the inability to perceive faces. As explained above prosopagnosia is a deficit in this ability, and as such damage is seen specifically in regions including the FFA. However even though this area is damaged face perception or detection is usually spared with impairment generally involving only recognition (Tarr and Gauthier, 2000), which completely disproves the idea that FFA is needed for perception. There is evidence that counteracts this idea which comes from recent studies which have found that some prosopagnosic patients show FFA activation (Steeves et al., 2006). This supports the idea that perception of faces can take place without recognition, and that this perception may be related to FFA activity. If perception can take place independently of face recognition it seems more plausible that the FFA may be responding to some other kind of perceptual demands other than the sole perception of face geometry for face recognition.

Finally, if the FFA is designed to uniquely respond to face geometry then we should not see its activation when viewing other objects. This however is not always the case. Gauthier and her colleagues (2000) found that both car and bird experts show activation in the FFA when viewing their objects of expertise and also state that non-face objects activate the FFA when matched to trials of individuation over categorization, as well that expertise training can induce FFA activity.

The feature-map model is also insufficient in its explanation in that it relies on stimulus geometry for activation of specific brain regions. Its holds that specific regions are activated based on presentation of specific shapes and features that define specific categories of objects. However, it is suggested that changes independent of geometry can activate these same regions (Tarr and Gauthier, 2000).

This feature-map model also seems at first extremely similar to the process-map model so it is here that an important distinction must be made clear. Both the feature-map and detection models infer that specialization of extrastriate areas is based a priori on stimulus geometry (Tarr and Gauthier, 2000). The process-map model recognizes the importance in stimulus geometry for defining object categories as such, but that experience with these objects has allowed for the selection of appropriate recognition strategies such as individuation or categorization and it is these specific strategies that subsequently recruit different parts of the process-map in the extrastriate cortex.

The Process-Map Model – Why?
When looking at the neurophysiological, neuroimaging and neuropsychological evidence, the strong activation and necessity of the FFA toward faces processing cannot be denied or explained away. However, neither can the fact that evidence from the same areas of research show activation and a necessity of the FFA for processing of other objects. Neuropsychological evidence comes from prosopagnosic patients that have problems with more than just faces but also within category discriminations of visually homogeneous categories (Gauthier et al., 2000). As well, there are cases of prosopagnosic patients who became experts on subjects and then lost their ability to recognize these objects after subsequent damage to the FFA (Gauthier et al., 2000).

Furthermore, the recruitment of the FFA for within-category discriminations may also represent the recruitment of holistic based processing that has been associated with the FFA and generally agreed upon as a function of this area (Tarr and Gauthier, 2000). However it is the assertion that this holistic type of processing results from the interaction between higher level categorization and level of experience, and it is these two processes which can account for the activation of the FFA (Tarr and Gauthier, 2000). In other words, with experience we are able to use more subordinate level categorizations in order to recognize objects of expertise, and this level of categorization specifically relies on holistic processing. It makes sense that this area then is most active for faces as all humans are face experts and that this level of expertise may be related to the ability for faces to be recognized at a more individual or subordinate level of categorization (which may require holistic processing).

Tarr and Gauthier (2000) have found evidence to support these ideas. First, level of categorization was found to affect the activity of the FFA. Using neuroimaging techniques it was found that the FFA was more active for subordinate level categorization across a variety of objects.
Perhaps more intriguing is evidence from expertise which has been shown to affect FFA activity. Specifically, bird, car, and trained greeble experts have shown increased activity in the FFA for their expertise categories (Gauthier et al., 2000). As well, ERP studies with bird and dog experts have shown an enhanced N170 when categorizing objects within their respective areas of expertise (Tarr and Gauthier, 2000).

All of this evidence supports the idea that the FFA is not necessarily face specific as it is expert specific. It is not as domain specific as people may want to believe it is, but rather reflects a more general responsiveness when specific levels of categorization are being recruited. Furthermore, these levels of categorization are inextricably linked to expertise and possibly with holistic processing.

Conclusions

The process-map model provides a more accurate description of the modularity that exists within the extrastriate cortex. More specifically it explains how the FFA is activated by objects other than faces and also why its magnitude of activation would be higher for that of faces. The process-map model proposed by Tarr and Gauthier (2000) explains that level of expertise and categorization are a few of possibly many processes that are linked to the activation of this more domain general region (symmetry and circularity have also been proposed).

The idea that an area in the brain, roughly the size of 4 voxels, contributes solely to the recognition of faces represents an extreme form of reductionism. It is undeniably apparent through many means of investigation that modularity in the brain does in fact exist. However, the desire to go further and further with this reductionism, to the extent to which areas such as the FFA are recognized as sites of extremely specific functioning makes me weary. In fact it diminishes the complexity of such an amazing organ to think that it is merely the congregation of tiny areas each with their own ridiculously restricted proposed functions such as tool recognition (Downing et al., 2005).

The most important conclusions that can be drawn from this controversy within a controversy is that even if modularity does exist it may not be due to the most obvious of related functions (i.e. face detection and the FFA) and we simply do not know what they should be correlated to in terms of neurological functioning. It is only through the formulation of an explanation that incorporates not just some, but all of the related activity of a specific cortical site that we can come closer to describing the functionality of discrete brain areas.

holy fucking shit fuck

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 06:35:24 GMT

The Coachella Valley Music and Arts Festival is an annual event held at the Empire Polo Fields in Indio, California featuring musical performances by a number of artists on different stages, showings of independent films, and a number of displays of contemporary art. Coachella is a two day event, whose attendance has steadily increased from about 10 to 20 thousand people at the first Coachella in 1999 to a sold-out 100 thousand in 2004. The event skipped an appearance in 2000.

The Coachella Music Festival is noted for its desert setting, (the Mojave Desert is approximately 50 miles north of Indio). Consequently, daytime temperatures frequently rise to over 100°F (38°C) with little cloud cover or shade, then drops drastically after sunset.

The typical genres of music represented at the festival are alternative rock, rap/hip hop, and electronica.

APRIL 29th, 2006

Animal Collective, Atmosphere, Audio Bullys, Carl Cox, Cat Power, Celebration, Chris Liberator, Clap Your Hands Say Yeah, Colette, Common, Daft Punk, Damian Marley, Deerhoof, Derrick Carter, Depeche Mode, Devendra Banhart, Eagles of Death Metal, Franz Ferdinand, HARD-fi, Hybrid, Imogen Heap, Infusion, Joey Beltram, Lady Sovereign, Ladytron, Living Things, Lyrics Born, Matt Costa, My Morning Jacket, Nine Black Alps, Platinum Pied Pipers, She Wants Revenge, Shy FX & T Power, Sigur Ros, stellastarr*, The Duke Spirit, The Juan Maclean, The Like, The New Amsterdams, The Section Quartet, The Walkmen, The Zutons, Tosca, White Rose Movement, Wolfmother, Youth Group

APRIL 30th, 2006

Amadou & Mariam, Art Brut, Be Your Own Pet, Bloc Party, Coheed and Cambria, Coldcut, Digable Planets, Dungen, Editors, Gabriel & Dresden, Giant Drag, Gilles Peterson, Gnarls Barkley, Infadels, James Blunt, Jamie Lidell, Jazzanova, Kaskade, Kristina Sky, Little Louie Vega, Los Amigos Invisibles, Massive Attack, Mates of State, Matisyahu, Metric, Michael Mayer, Minus the Bear, Mogwai, MURS, featuring 9th Wonder, Mylo (DJ Set), OneRepublic, Paul Oakenfold, Phoenix, Scissor Sisters, Seu Jorge, Sleater-Kinney, The Dears, The Go! Team, The Magic Numbers, The Octopus Project, The Subways, Tool, TV on the Radio, Ted Leo and the Pharmacists, Wolf Parade, Yeah Yeah Yeahs

WHO WANTS TO COME??!??!?!?

oh, harro.

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 01:04:40 GMT

i feel like i am merely existing lately.
like when you drive all the way home and wonder if any of the lights you went through were actually green or if you actually stopped at any stop signs.

or when you completely zone out and realize that you weren't really zoning out about anything in particular you were just sitting there. existing.

school is sucking the life from my soul-fire atoms.

no one will get that unless any of you are familiar with the oppinions of Democritus
which why on earth would you be, unless you are also taking a history of biology and or philosophy of the mind class.

we finished the second of THREE of our first set of presentations. 3 hours down. 1.5 more hours this month and then only another
3 MOTHERFUCKING HOURS TO FUCKING PLAN OUT. FUCK
I have to write a paper on either aphasia, alexia or agnosia. actually what am i complaining about
those topics are fascinating.

actually they really are.
seriously.
FASCIFUCKINGNATING

on a funny side note if you google image search soul fire atoms a picture of the single for SHAKE IT OFF comes up. hahahhahahhaha fuck you mariah carey.

another funny side note
i google image search my teacher for my psyc class, and then we put his picture in our presentation as many times as we could

I'm also finally on the Gunther PPL page on GUNTHERNET

I have a paper to write and an exam next week.. but after that it's fucking READING BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!

finally. michele -
i'm comin home baby.
i'm comin home.

OOH OOOH OOHH and i finally get to see metric on march 29th and maybe controller controller on march 4th
i've only been waiting a couple years to see metric. WHATEVER.
excited i am.

but before that
reading break.
yessssssssss

my parents might be going away that weekend too
so i could have a chilliwack party at my house.
how sweet does the prospect of THAT sound.
pretty fucking sweet.

oh yea -15 lbs.
pretty fucking sweet as well.

which means i'm eating A+W tonight while i sloth around the house for the first time in over a week. good thing it's thursday AKA the best tv night of the week.

External Auditory Meatus

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 23:48:44 GMT

well i guess it's about fucking time right?

amber, i didn't get to see the peanut-butter jelly time episode of the family guy, but sean mcsweeny msg'd me about it on msn like right after because he was like WTF THAT'S CATHY'S SONG.

it just goes to show you how up me and amber are on what's funny and what's not.
funny experts.

ooh and just a little reminder of that

everyone please go visit the russian crab, and listen to the rap this guy made about him. which just happens to use a beat from one of our favorite rap artists, Eminem.

------>R U 4 SEXES CHAT?<---------
although i don't get why this guy seems to think it's an Alien crab
it's clearly russian.
all i have to say is

i'll make you LOL
LOL LOL LOL LOL
crab alien rules the world

anyway. onward and upward.

so it's my last semester of my undergraduate degree.
i still can't really believe that. my convocation is in june, but i'm done at the end of april.
i'll get to wear the gold sash because I'm getting a BSc and not a BA. sassss

and all my classes this semester are pretty awesome. so far in my upper level psyc class we have played brain anatomy charades and Aphasia Jeopardy. Our group has schooled everyone both times, but i mean i am queen of charades so that was an unfair advantage.
Buuut we have to come up with FIVE 1.5 hour lectures on Agnosia and Blindsight/Neglect.
actually i'm excited because the girls in my group are awesome and our topic is super cool

for example
Prosopagnosia, which is a subtype of agnosia, is a disorder characterized by an inability to recognizes FACES.
like the only way you can associate who important people in your life are - visually - is through other cues like maybe a color they wear all the time. i would show you a picture of your mom and to you it would be a stranger.

crazy hey?

there are a lot of other forms too.

so yea. good stuff.

i also started dieting again. it is sooo much easier this time. especially with lynda and becky both doing the same diet. I lost 6 lbs my first week, becky lost 4 lbs and lynda lost 5 lbs.
Prop's to us
mad props.

I am so broke right now.
I haven't been working this month yet because clare is out of comission with a broken ankle.
i feel really bad for her. she is bored out of her mind sitting on the couch all day with her ankle in this huge cast. she had to get surgery so it's like ultra bad
it's almost been a month though, so hopefully after she gets out of her cast and into that mobile ankle support thing next week
I can actually make some money to pay for my insurance

Brokeback mountain was fucking awesome.
i love gay man love.
it was the most adorable heart wrenching story.

i don't understand how people think it isn't right for two men or two women to be together
you can't help who you love
and you can't help who you're attracted to
just let things be the way they feel they should.

bahh
i shake my fist at my granny and all the other fucking assholes at my church who get into a huge tiffy when they marry gay couples at our church.
get over yourselves

sooo to sum things all up
things are marvy - minus the 3 person living dynamic. its weird how much things have changed this semester. its like becky and lynda are BFFFFFF X 56342696426. sometimes i feel left out. and becky has been driving me mental lately.
normal house stuff i guess.

OOH! i saw aaron the other day. (He was the lab teacher from my astronomy class this summer that i became friends with)
he's as cute as ever - growing his hair out. and he is taking this general astrophysics knowledge examination in February for his PHD program. He invited me to the party he's having afterward and i'm supposed to come stop by his new place and catch up one of these days.
so yea
that was nice. i love the fact that he actually makes the effort to keep in touch. it's weird to make a friend. hahahha
i'm lame

did i tell everyone i have to dissect a cat for my chordate zoology class
i know
sick.

i'll leave you all with the fact that i now own my very own set of scalples and dissecting tools

muwhahahhah

Me vs. Maradona vs. Elvis

Wed, 28 Dec 2005 13:27:51 GMT

After one or two I get used to the room
We go slow when we first make our moves
By five or six i'll bring you out to the car
By number nine I got my head on the bar (in the bar)
And it's sad but true, out of cash and IOUS

I got desperate desires and unadmirable plans
My tounge will taste of gin and malicious intent
Bring you back to the bar and get you out of the cold
My sober straight face gets you out of your clothes
And they're scared
That we know
All the crimes
They'll commit
Who they'll kiss
Before they get home

I will lie awake
And lie for fun
And fake the way that I hold you
Let you fall for every empty word I say

Barely conscious in the door where you stand
Your eyes are fighting; Sleep while your mouth makes your demands
You laugh at every word
trying too hard to be cute
I almost feel sorry for what I'm gonna do
And your hair
Smells of smoke
Who will cast
The first stone?
You can sin
Or spend the night all alone

Brass buttons on your coat hold the cold
In the shape of a heart that they cut out of stone
And you're using all your looks that you've thrown from the start
If you let me have my way I swear I'll tear you apart
Cause its all
You can be
You're a drunk
And you're scared
It's ladies night
And all the girls drink for free

i wish we were farmers.

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 22:36:54 GMT

i'm glad that a certain dispute was recently resolved. not like.. complete resolution
but some kind of closure that is surrounded in positivity rather than negativity.

tonight your ghost will ask my ghost
where is the love?
tonight your ghost will ask my ghost
who put these body's between us?

noni sent some pictures already. plus 5 points.
minus 5 points for the lack of ones of us together, or one of me that isn't haggard.
i should also mention that noni is a firm believer in the candid camera moments.

Myself and Noni. he loves you.

Perry + Lynda on the Bus

Perry and Siku @ metal monday

Lynda + Myself @ evolution

Me + Lynda rocking out HARD. you should've seen Lynda it was fucking 100% pure k-tel solid gold

Natian + Eskimatian AWWW CUTE.

This guy was easily the best dancer I have ever seen. he owns the dance floor on metal monday's.

Natian Sensation ghetto thugged out.

Noni + Siku. you have no idea how hard it is to get that kid to fucking crack a smile. GOD NONI.

My guitar is actually being played by someone talented. i feel good for it.

as i whisper in your ear. i wanna fucking tear you apart.

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 04:12:12 GMT

I have mixed feelings about life lately a lot

one day things feel like there is nothing to be sad about ever
and the next feels like there is nothing to be happy about ever.

today = the latter.

I'm a midnight
fistfight
looking for a mother that will get me high
just a stupid motherfucker if i die, i die.

ooh system.
i used to feel impartial to the new album
however i now feel it is essential.
really awesome from start to finish.

i know some of you must be puking right about now.

so i got one of my marks back
what a beauty of a gem it is
so much infact that i'll keep it to myself

oh yea, and did i tell everyone how i knocked a glass of wine all over they keyboard of my laptop?
needless to say, it is a useless piece of crap that is now holding a lot of my life for the last year on its unaccessable harddrive.
niiice.

i've been hanging out a lot lately with noni's sister siku. she's pretty rad in all sorts of ways and definately one of the most beautiful girls i have ever seen. I shall post some pictures soon. we're going to see Narnia together this weekend so i'm pretty excited about that.

i have also been hanging out quite a bit lately with noni because he surprised siku and me by flying out here last week. he left sunday but was here for a week, and we had some pretty good times. pretty fucking good times indeed.
one of them involving really good pot, ali g season 2, and a little song called "gentle warrior".

noni i miss having your pot smoking, guitar playing, bad moving watching, laugh-until-your-hurting, meaningful conversation having, hative ass around.

time for tacos.. thanks becky!

will post more soon
<3

I Haven't Laughed This Much In A Long Time. 5 points goes to: Noni Paulette.

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 00:09:57 GMT

Chuck Norris' tears cure cancer. Too bad he has never cried.
Rather than being birthed like a normal child, Chuck Norris instead decided to punch his way out of his mother's womb. Shortly thereafter he grew a beard.

When Chuck Norris plays Oregon Trail his family does not die from cholera or dysentery, but rather roundhouse kicks to the face. He also requires no wagon, since he carries the oxen, axels, and buffalo meat on his back. He always makes it to Oregon before you.

Chuck Norris recently had the idea to sell his urine as a canned beverage. We know this beverage as Red Bull.

Chuck Norris built a time machine and went back in time to stop the JFK assassination. As Oswald shot, Chuck met all three bullets with his beard, deflecting them. JFK’s head exploded out of sheer amazement.

Chuck Norris’ girlfriend once asked him how much wood a woodchuck could chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood. He then shouted, “HOW DARE YOU RHYME IN THE PRESENCE OF CHUCK NORRIS!” and ripped out her throat. Holding his girlfriend’s bloody throat in his hand he bellowed, “DON’T FUCK WITH CHUCK!” Two years and five months later he realized the irony of this statement and laughed so hard that anyone within a hundred mile radius of the blast went deaf.

Chuck Norris sold his soul to the devil for his rugged good looks and unparalleled martial arts ability. After the transaction was finalized, Chuck roundhouse kicked the devil in the face and took his soul back. The Devil, who appreciates irony, couldn’t stay mad and admitted he should have seen it coming. They now play poker every second Wednesday of the month.

The original theme song to the Transformers was actually “Chuck Norris – more than meets the eye, Chuck Norris – robot in disguise,” and starred Chuck Norris as a Texas Ranger who defended the earth from drug-dealing Decepticons and could turn into a pickup truck. This was far too much awesome for a single show, however, so it was divided.

Chuck Norris lives by only one rule: No Asian Chicks.

To prove it isn’t that big of a deal to beat cancer, Chuck Norris smoked 15 cartons of cigarettes a day for 2 years and acquired 7 different kinds of cancer only to rid them from his body by flexing for 30 minutes. Beat that, Lance Armstrong.

Chuck Norris once shot a German plane down with his finger by yelling, “Bang!”

A man once asked Chuck Norris if his real name is “Charles”. Chuck Norris did not respond and simply stared at him until he exploded.

Chuck Norris does not sleep. He waits.

Chuck Norris can make a woman climax by simply pointing at her and saying “booya”.

Before filming Walker Texas Ranger, Chuck Norris is injected with five times the lethal does of elephant tranquilizer. This is, of course, to limit his strength and mobility, in an attempt to lower the fatality rate of the actors he fights.

Chuck Norris once went to a frat party and preceded to roundhouse every popped collar in sight. He then drank three kegs and shit on their floor, just because he’s Chuck Norris.

Chuck Norris took my virginity and the will sure as Hell take yours. If you’re thinking to yourself, “That’s impossible, I already lost my virginity” then you’re dead wrong.

Chuck Norris found out about Conan O’Brien’s lever that shows clips from Walker Texas Ranger and is working on a way to make it show clips of Norris having sex with Conan’s wife.

The chief export of Chuck Norris is pain.

One of the greatest cover-ups of the last century was the fact that Hitler did not commit suicide in his bunker, but was in fact tea-bagged to death by Chuck Norris.

Chuck Norris punched a woman in the vagina when she didn’t give him exact changed.

Chuck Norris is currently suing NBC, claiming Law and Order are trademarked names for his left and right legs.

Chuck Norris once tried to sue Burger King after they refused to put razor wire in his Whopper Jr., insisting that is actually “his” way.

After much debate, President Truman decided to drop the atomic bomb on Hiroshima rather than the alternative of sending Chuck Norris. His reasoning? It was more Humane.

Chuck Norris frequently signs up for beginner karate classes, just so he can “accidentally” beat the crap out of little kids.

Chuck Norris doesn’t have normal white blood cells like you and I. His have small black rings around them. This signifies that they are all black belts in every form of martial arts and they roundhouse kick the crap out of viruses. That’s why Chuck Norris never gets ill.

If you can see Chuck Norris, he can see you. If you can’t see Chuck Norris you may only be seconds away from death.

Chuck Norris ruins the endings of Harry Potter books for children who just bought one for the hell of it. When they start crying Chuck Norris calmly say “I’ll give you something to cry about,” and roundhouse kicks them in the face.

Helen Keller’s favorite color is Chuck Norris

wow, you're so cool.

Mon, 21 Nov 2005 18:54:08 GMT

whoever broke into my livejournal and changed my userpic is so awesome.
i have a feeling i know who it was
seeing as how the replacement picture is some kind of a crab feasting on something.

all i can say is

Grow up, Grow a brain

and get a life.

Dear Diary

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 20:57:24 GMT

List of things to do...

- become the worst student you have ever been CHECK
- have numerous break downs this week/this month/this semester CHECK
- have an unidentified stomach problem that wakes you up early in the morning CHECK
- break down a few more times and miss writing a midterm, handing in papers on time, nearly fail a biology test CHECK
- go to a counselor to try to find out what the fuck is wrong with you CHECK
- try to dig yourself out of the hole you have made for yourself this semester CHECK
- be unsuccessful at said digging and have some more breakdowns CHECK
- be a loser and always subject yourself to unrequited feelings CHECK
- try to finish writing 3 papers in 4 days CHECK
- be unsuccessful at finishing said papers because you have so many breakdowns that you can't concentrate on anything except for how
much you hate yourself for becoming such a failure at life CHECK
- decide to stop smoking pot CHECK (yea believe it people. its for real)
- realize you have an inability to cope with anything in your life CHECK
- decide to see a drug and alcohol counselor in addition to your regular counselor CHECK
- figure out if you're going to defer all your finals or get these classes taken off your record at the price of over $5000. .......

welcome to my life.
in all its depressing glory.
i know cathy. you have it so hard.. what with being handed everything to you your entire life and still managing to fuck everything up.

and go ahead. if you let me - they're never gonna find me now. my life is always empty..

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 09:59:08 GMT

it's almost 2 am.
i can't sleep..

i've been listening to this song on repeat.
right now it speaks volumes about how i am feeling in this moment.

michele i tried phoning you tonight late. sorry if i disturbed your slumber! i just needed to talk to my better half. <3

You’re not coming back for me
These things they will never mean
I’m so used to be being wrong
So put me where I belong
I’ll get back to you
God knows I try
But I still lose
And I’ll get back to you
These days run by, and I still lose
Angels say they could make you suffer
Give and take like a vicious lover
When all this loses meaning
You’ll never want it back
somehow
Awake but still I’m dreaming
And never waking up
You’re not coming back for me
These things they will never mean
I’m so used to being wrong
So put me where I belong
I’ll get back to you
God knows I try
But I’ll still lose
I’ll get back to you
These days run by
And I’ll still lose

i used to think i'd get over everything. but everything just got over me.

Wed, 09 Nov 2005 03:03:12 GMT

there has been a lot of turmoil in my life recently
and it sucks a lot to have to say that it's pretty much all self inflicted.

i don't know why i can't get my shit together lately
and i'm being really hard on myself because of this.

i have never felt this out of control of things in a long time. and my grades are suffering.
and my quality of life is suffering.

i made a few decisions last week.
i really want to change some major aspects of my life, in attempts to become more of a healthy individual both mentally and physically
first and foremost
i need to stop smoking so much fucking marijuana all the time
second
i need to start incorporating regular exercise into my weekly routine.
third
i need to start eating better.

lynda is going to help me with the exercise sheiz, so i'm excited about that.

we are going to start off by going on evening strolls.
and i'm all for night time adventures.

Sean came out this past weekend. we had a reasonably good time, minus being ditched by lynda. but hey, we got drunk with becky at home and mowed on greasy mcdonalds at 2am.
I also bought some awesome clothes at old navy after my favorite pair of worn out jeans finally ripped whilst getting into the fucking blazer.
$100 dollars later and I had a new pair of pjamma pants that are FUCKING AWESOME, a new pair of jeans, and a bright green hoodie that is also FUCKING AWESOME.

Things I have accomplished recently
- watched batman begins
- discovered an alright place to get pho here in victoria.
- enjoyed the awesome day of sunshine we had yesterday downtown shopping
- met a cool guy who owns a tiny clothing store called Nu. he is having a show soon and gave me and lynda his card. there is a possiblity of sewing lessons
- got black beads for my vert.labret at the patch. lynda bought them for me because i am broke thanks to icbc and my ignorance. (it's a long story)
- procrastinated on writing papers due next week
- planned a goth night with Noni who has rekindled his love for manson + twiggy.

speaking of which..

some new pictures for your viewing pleasure.

This was from the day that Noni left for yellowknife

He is pure Natian.

My new black beads!

happy halloween, bitches.

Tue, 01 Nov 2005 07:05:39 GMT

www.gunthernet.com
if you don't know, now you know - Nigga.

roulette

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 06:58:57 GMT

I have a problem that I cannot explain
I have no reason why it should've been so plain
Have no questions but I sure have excuse
I lack the reason why I should be so confused

I know, how I feel when I'm around you
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you
Around you

Left a message but it ain't a bit of use
I have some pictures, the wild might be the deuce
Today you saw, you saw me, you explained
Playin the show and running down the plane

I know, how I feel when I'm around you
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you
I, I know, how I feel when I'm around you
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you
Around you

I, I know, how I feel when I'm around you
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you
I, I know, how I feel when I'm around you
I don't know, how I feel when I'm around you
Around you, Around you, Around you...

if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied, illuminate the NO's on their vacancy signs

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 18:11:43 GMT

if there's no one beside you.. when your soul embarks
then i will follow you into the dark.

i have never really been a fan of death cab for cutie
however i didn't mind that new Soul meets Body song
so i downloaded the album
and discovered a really cute song

if you're interested check out I Will Follow You Into The Dark - From the album Plans - by Death Cab For Cutie.

I totally passed out last night at 930pm
I was fucking tired, i woke up at 7am yesterday morning to see my niece before i had to leave for victoria.

which apparantly I didn't really need to do so damn early yesterday. my bio lab TA insinuated that our 4th lab was due TODAY but it's not due until next tuesday.

I smoked some salvia at jason and jen's last night. it was funny.
it was like getting high on shrooms instantly, the body feeling and overwhelming urge to giggle. but it only lasted maybe a couple of minutes.

It gave me a headache after though and also maybe the reason i fell asleep so fucking early.

I woke up at 7am though, and I went for a run at 8. it was fucking cold. i was glad i didn't have to run by a whole bunch of little pukes going to the jr. high right by my house. thank you teachers for striking.

this weekend was fun, even though i made a serious attempt to bouge all night saturday. because i was sofa king tired.
THANKS GILL AND JEN AND MICHELE I HAD SO MANY MUCH FUN TIMES! HARRO!

me and michele still managed to stay up talking until 4am without narcotics. actually i did smoke pot and we had some beer
i found my 22 hours marathon to be worth every hour.

the moral(s) of this thanksgiving weekend:

*Just because you're extremely hot, and getting your phd in astrophysics, and a skater, and love punk rock - doesn't mean that you're going to be a fun person to drive to the ferry/ride the ferry with.

*red robins for dinner really is worth an hour and half round trip, especially when it is for free (thanks amy!)

*the goonies on t-shirt is a really good present (thanks amy!)

*smoking joints in front of the empress/ on 5 corners is only fun for maybe 20 minutes (thanks chilliwack!)

*the travelling ponts revealed that michele has the blackest heart to the xcorexxx

*Gill, Michele and Jen should all come to victoria

*Leonerd is extremely cute and funny, and I'm glad he is still my friend even though I was a total loser when we first met.

The fog was crazy on the ocean at 9am. and yea i was the stupid person on the forward deck taking pictures of the scenery.
what could i do with mr.boring-ponts as my travelling companion. i wanted to take a picture of aaron but he would be a weirdo about it.

My niece is so freaking awesome

I couldn't get her to sit still

I didn't take this picture, you can tell because it's so fucking good. oh and that cute boy is leonard.

you can tell i took this picture, as part of our heads are missing. i decided to post this even though we both look unattractive.
now THAT's self confidence

dear thanksgiving, thank you for giving me a reason to eat lots of turkey.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 00:40:07 GMT

so i figured
if you can't beat 'em. join 'em.

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	cathy marie andrews
Birthday:	march twenty-third, nineteen eighty three
Birthplace:	fort mcmurray, alberta. canada.
Current Location:	victoria, british columbia. canada.
Eye Color:	really really light green with some yellow on the inside
Hair Color:	dirty jew blonde
Height:	5'5.5''
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	engrish and german
The Shoes You Wore Today:	my brown old man shoes
Your Weakness:	marijuanamethamphetamines
Your Fears:	moving on with my "adult" life
Your Perfect Pizza:	bbq sauce, chicken, mushrooms, red onion and goat cheese (and no i'm not a total douche, that's an actual pizza at 5th street)
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	to grow up and grow a brain
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	OMGWTFBBQ
Thoughts First Waking Up:	hunker please don't pee in my room
Your Best Physical Feature:	MY FACE. oooh burn. oh and MY EYES ARE REALLY BRIGHT.
Your Bedtime:	depends. sometimes 1030pm. sometimes 3am
Your Most Missed Memory:	3's company... you know who you are.
Pepsi or Coke:	Rootbeer
MacDonalds or Burger King:	ITS MCDONALDS YOU FUCKING DOUCHE
Single or Group Dates:	does anyone REALLY go on dates anymore?
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate.
Cappuccino or Coffee:	again you're a douche. cappuccino is esspresso with milk. therefore they are both coffee.
Do you Smoke:	i sure fucking do
Do you Swear:	i sure fucking do
Do you Sing:	i sure fucking do
Do you Shower Daily:	usually
Have you Been in Love:	i sure fucking have
Do you want to go to College:	i'm in university right now. well not RIGHT now this second. i'm at home right this second.
Do you want to get Married:	I guess
Do you belive in yourself:	i sure fucking do
Do you get Motion Sickness:	only if i haven't had anything to eat and am trying to read whilst in the back seat
Do you think you are Attractive:	in some ways more than others
Are you a Health Freak:	neine. i try to be, but it ends up not working out so good
Do you get along with your Parents:	on occasion
Do you like Thunderstorms:	who doesn't?
Do you play an Instrument:	I play many instruments
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yup
In the past month have you Smoked:	yup
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yup
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	sort of, again - who calls someone up and says hey will you go on a date with me
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yup
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no - you're kidding, right?
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes! mmmm
In the past month have you been on Stage:	neine
In the past month have you been Dumped:	neine
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	neine
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	neine
Ever been Drunk:	yes, many a time
Ever been called a Tease:	no
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	only 2 times EVER!
How do you want to Die:	trying to get an airplane to reach escape velocity
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	a Clinical Neuropsychologist
What country would you most like to Visit:	anywhere in the southern hemisphere
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	hazel
Favourite Hair Color:	depends on the guy
Short or Long Hair:	depends on the guy
Height:	depends on his weight
Weight:	depends on his height
Best Clothing Style:	HE WAS A SK8ER BOI
Number of Drugs I have taken:	of different kinds? i think 8
Number of CDs I own:	fuck i don't fucking know. you go count asshole.
Number of Piercings:	right now 2
Number of Tattoos:	3
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	0.25
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

i know.. i know..

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 05:43:30 GMT

you're all like
fuck you with your astronomy bullshit

but you know what

everyone should be aware of these facts:

Analyses of a new high-resolution map of microwave light emitted only 380,000 years after the Big Bang appear to define our universe more precisely than ever before. The eagerly awaited results announced last year from the orbiting Wilkinson Microwave Anisotropy Probe resolve several long-standing disagreements in cosmology rooted in less precise data. Specifically, present analyses of above WMAP all-sky image indicate that the universe is 13.7 billion years old (accurate to 1 percent), composed of 73 percent dark energy, 23 percent cold dark matter, and only 4 percent atoms, is currently expanding at the rate of 71 km/sec/Mpc (accurate to 5 percent), underwent episodes of rapid expansion called inflation, and will expand forever. Astronomers will likely research the foundations and implications of these results for years to come.

why don't you come on down

Aloha, Bitches

VIOLATING WOMEN'S RIGHTS IS COOL!

Dirrty Babe. You see these shackels baby? I'm your Slave

I'm not - I'm HUNGRY

i hang out with 19 year old's

Dear Diary

i don't even know what to say

last day of class = today

for anyone who's interested. *ahem*

holy fucking shit fuck

oh, harro.

External Auditory Meatus

Me vs. Maradona vs. Elvis

i wish we were farmers.

as i whisper in your ear. i wanna fucking tear you apart.

I Haven't Laughed This Much In A Long Time. 5 points goes to: Noni Paulette.

wow, you're so cool.

Dear Diary

and go ahead. if you let me - they're never gonna find me now. my life is always empty..

i used to think i'd get over everything. but everything just got over me.

happy halloween, bitches.

roulette

if heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied, illuminate the NO's on their vacancy signs

dear thanksgiving, thank you for giving me a reason to eat lots of turkey.

i know.. i know..

for anyone who's interested. ahem